pressured

just came home from the library ... i'm supposed to be relaxing because we do not have classes today and tomorrow--holiday today because it is Taiwan's "All Saints' Day," tomorrow because it is Friday so it was "sandwiched" for a continuous 4-day holiday over the weekends. well, that was also what mom thought, that i will be "free" and idle, so i can wash the clothes and do some errands .... when would i ever be free and idle?? it's as if that will never happen ...

so why did i go to the library? to study and prepare for my upcoming new intensive course for the Master of Ministry students for 3 consecutive weeks starting April 29 (Sunday evening and Monday morning until afternoon). i feel pressured not only for this course but also for the plenary session of the Asian Baptist Congress in Chiangmai, Thailand on May 4. then, i also have to preach in the chapel on May 25 and another intensive course in Taitung on May 27-28. i also have to prepare and take charge of the ABGTS D.Min. enrollment (deadline on May 15) and comprehensive exams on June 11; and another preaching on June 17 .... and all of these besides my regular teaching and administrative tasks .... ohhh myyyy! why are all of these crammed in together!!! i feel pressured and overwhelmed just like what i went through in late December of 2005 until the first week of January 2006 when i was busy preparing for my paper to be presented at the Bangkok Symposium. Lord, once more i need Your grace and strength .... just as how You saw me through every time i go through such hectic and crazy schedule, i ask of You to lead me on ... to see me through ... i know that Your grace is sufficient for me!